Monday, August 6, 2007

TRANSCEND-DANCE

So, today I apologized to someone when I wasn't wrong...ouch...gag...ick....

I was spoken badly about by people who know better at the work-place, actually lied about, slandered, and "done unto"...it happens in the corporate world...but to keep the peace, really and truly to keep the peace (and my covenants), I made an appointment and walked into the interim supervisor's office and told her that I felt we got off to a bad start (which we did)...I would like to proceed in a more optimistic fashion (which I do)...and while we may not be able to forget the negativity of the past (that would require therapy and lots of it), we can certainly choose to be more positive about our interactions in the future (such as which staircase to kick her down where I wouldn't get caught...just kidding...mostly). She was very kind...and then got a dig in...I sat there and smiled...what's the point in fighting...if I'm going to walk the proverbial walk I have to take the first step right???....But the interesting part was the long walk I made back across the campus to the dark hot cave that is my office. As always, I had to get past the troll (a raw bone to gnaw on does the trick....sheesh, physicians these days.) but something really interesting happened. I almost felt lighter. I know that sounds cliche, but cliches have a kernal of truth in them...that's how they reached "cliche" status....one day I hope to reach cliche status....one day people will say..."oh my gosh, you are so....Debbie" Anyway, I was having the funnest interactions with strangers, talking to them, smiling, and they were talking and smiling back!!!! Usually, it's me doing all of the talking and smiling and getting the reactions out of them but today, I was actually getting talked to and smiled at in return....it was amazing. The sun light looked whiter and the day was more sparkly, the ponds more shimmery and the duck poop less on my shoes...it was just a great walk back....it was enchanting actually. I know this feeling and I joke about it but in all seriousness, it's the pure love of Christ. I cannot deny it and It makes Itself very very clear and unmistakable and I believe it was because I went into that office willing to be a peacemaker, motivated by good intentions and acting on faith...does it happen every time....no, but often enough to keep me doing it. It lifts me and carries me and connects me to everything around me. It is transcendent and blissful and I would be willing to stack that feeling against any thing felt by any yogi sitting on any mountain top anywhere on the planet...ain't nothing' like that. peace.

3 comments:

Diane said...

You are amazing.....almost "Debbie-like". You brightened my day and gave me some good stuff to chew on. I have felt it, too...and you are right....nothin' better. Thanks for the reminder. good job, ace.

But...if she ticks you off again, remember, a strategically tossed shoe sometimes does the trick. :) (awww...memories.)

katzbox said...

hahahaha...and you dear friend, know all the reasons why I could never run for public office...all of 'em...but it would make such a great tabloid....

big hugs to momma heb...g-mommin

Stephanie Jette said...

You go girl! You are really good at being the peacemaker, you always have. Keep it up...your such a true inspriation.